Stuff happens every day that rocks my self-confidence.
But that’s OK.
My self confidence is like a muscle that hasn’t been challenged in a awhile. My self confidence had become lazy and complacent with my “old job.” I was in a place of “I can do this job with my eyes closed” which may be a good thing if your personality is OK with showing up, milking out an uninspiring job, collecting a paycheck every two weeks, and then doing it all over again.
That is SO not my style.
I am thinking there is some “rocker” in my blood. I like to push the envelope, rebel, and buck the system. I also get depressed when bored, and my current employment had become source of painful boredom.
So I left.
You’re NUTS people howled. Even my supportive Mom was a hard-sell. But rest assured it wasn’t a leap without planning, strategies, and awareness. It wasn’t like I was thrust from gainful employment to a soul crushing termination.
I planned, plotted, and left.
Sure, there are brief moments of “night of the darkened soul” ( always at night when I am over-tired) when I wonder if I did the right thing. Then I wake up the next day with renewed determination and solid resolve that I am where I need to be.
I am still discovering my path and job description. I firmly believe, when the dust settles, I will be focusing on one or two skills and rockin those to the nth degree. The worrying, fretting, calculating, and urge to take gigs that suck just because they are a paycheck is subsiding. I am shaping who I am along with the skillset I want to focus on daily. My days are bright and full of promise, and even brighter days are just around the bend 🙂